Saturday, November 14, 2009

God has been teaching me....

....nothing. Nothing, you say? That's right - the reason God hasn't been teaching me anything is because I haven't been reading my Bible. It's been a conscious effort on my part not to hear and apply the wisdom of God. In the past 2 weeks, I've probably picked up my Bible 3 times. This is a time in my life where I need God and His Word the most. I've been looking to others for vindication and allowing their opinion of me to shape my opinion of me.

That's just not okay.

Because I've allowed that to happen, my opinion of myself has swayed with the wind. Certainly, we should be aware of our own triumphs and downfalls, but at the end of the day, God's opinion of us is constant, never-changing. I know that my sin hurts Him, but His love for me does not change the way our human love so easily does. So I know I haven't written in a while, and this post is particularly brief, but take this post as an act of confession. I need prayer to keep going and specifically, to read my Bible.

2 comments:

Bobby Williams said...

Be encouraged Hannah! You can do it and I'll pray for a fire to erupt in you that will make you thirst for the word!

I love youversion.com, especially the daily bible reading...helps me stay on track. Check it out!

anna c. said...

i love your honesty here. we've all been guilty of this, so you're not alone in this boat. discipline is so hard for me too. i can see and feel my joy so much more on days that i start off in God's word. praying for you and myself that we'll devote ourselves to this on a more consistant level and crave it like a dear pants for WATER. love ya ;)